Wednesday, December 01, 2004

I tried to post yesterday about that reality show "The Swan", but there was some malfunction and now it is lost forever. Basically I find that show disturbing yet fascinating. The women don't even resemble their old selves. I just think it would be so weird to look in the mirror and see someone completely different and be happy about that. It's one thing to lose a bunch of weight and look and feel better. It's another thing to have your facial features altered to the point that your children won't even recognize you. That's some major self-hate. "Look honey, mommy is finally home from her 3 month carve session." "That's not mommy. Where's my mommy? Whaaaa!"

So I couldn't get to sleep last night and as I'm lying in my bed trying to relax, lines from Hamlet pop into my head. "To be or not to be, that is the question. Whether tis nobler in the minds eye to suffer the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, or ..." That's all I remember from being forced to memorize a section of it in high school. I also remember the first line from Julius Caesar that I was forced to memorize in 10th grade. "Friends, Romans, Countrymen, lend me your ears. " And I believe that is all I can recall. When I'm trying to sleep all kinds of randomness comes to the surface.

It's December. I wonder why time seems to go by faster as you get older. Maybe because you get used to what time consists of and take it for granted instead of seizing the moment like you did as a kid. Everything is urgent when you're young. You would think with age we wouldn't take time for granted, because we would realize it is quickly running out. But it's the opposite. I'm just hungry and babbling and not making any sense. Fuck time.

3 comments:

Memphis Word Nerd said...

Heh. I had a similar experience last wkd. I couldn't get the opening lines of Romeo and Juliet out of my head.

"Two households, both alike in dignity,
In fair Verona where we lay our scene
From ancient grudge break to new mutiny
Where civil blood makes civil hands unclean.
From forth the fatal loins of these two foes
A pair of star cross'd lovers take their lives.
And with their misadventured piteous overthrows
Do with their death bury their parents' strife.
The fearful passage of their death mark'd love
And the continuance of their parents' rage
Which, but their children's end, naught could remove
Is now the two hours' traffic of our stage.
The which, if you with patient ears attend,
What here shall miss, our toil shall strive to mend."

Yup, it's official. I'm a geek.

ml said...

So I'm guessing you had to memorize that? Or do you just recall that from reading it? You smart girl!

Memphis Chix said...

That's the only Shakespeare I had to memorize, and also part of the reason they moved me up to advanced English classes. I was absolutely the only person in my freshman class who could write that all out for an assignment. They then kicked me out of standard English forever after that. The sad thing is, there were a lot of my friends in there who could have done it but were just too lazy.
Plus, after that I pretty much got lumped in with the "brains" aka smart kids, which you have to be pretty cool to not get looked down upon for being.
Is high school really closer to the core of the American experience than anything else? Some famous person said that.
What a depressing thought.